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Location: Iowa City, Iowa, United States
Birthday: 12/9/1981
Gender: Female


Interests: I like watching movies and socializing. What I am really in to is anything that is inspirational. I love waterfalls, stary nights, the moon, flowers, my friends, my family, God, spring, quotes, vacations, California, animals, psychology, and well there is alot more but you'll find out.
Expertise: My expertise is in advice giving. One day it will be in Psychology... I almost have a minor in it, but I am going for more.
Occupation: Student


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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Years later...

So it's now feb. of 2008.  For some reason I just thought about xanga, the place I used to write down my real feelings.  Maybe I could do it on here and not myspace or whatever because I thought there wasn't many people that were aware of xanga.  Well, I am going to keep pretending that is the case and write whatever I feel like.  I am going to have to get used to the new look of everthing on here and maybe make some changes to this page which has been the same since I first started on xanga.

Well here goes...I have no idea where I left off in my life but I am now a drug and alcohol counselor.  It's amazing how my life came together.  Last time I wrote I think that I was going to WIU for psychology to be a mental health therapist, before that I wanted to become an el. ed. teacher(I had wanted that since kindergarden).  After growing up with addiction in the family, friends that became addicts and alcoholics, and my struggle with addition I finally realized where my life was meant to go.  I starting going to school to be a drug and alcohol counselor and ended up finding out that everything in my life had prepared me to because a counselor.  I always tried looking at the tramatic things that happened to me throughtout my life as lessons and that I went through those things so I could help others that were struggling with addition, emotional/physical/sexual abuse, depression/anxiety, medical problems, grief, self-esteem issues...need I go on?  Well, I am very grateful for everything.  I know that I am a great counselor and that is mainly because I have been through so much.

So that was about my career which is the main focus right now...but I do have some of my own issues...  and I will be back soon to write about some things I have been learning and struggling with.


Wednesday, November 01, 2006

wow...I'm writing again within a week...crazy!  Anyway, I just felt like writing.  Nothing really to important...I got a new car.  I'm quiting my job as a bartender...I really needed to, I felt as if I was losing myself.  Being at the bar all the time with all the drunken drama was really getting to me.  Hopefully I will get a job counseling.  I can't wait!!  OH yeah, I am also moving out of my apartment...moving back into my parents house.  I love them very much, but there isn't enough room for all of us.  I was going to try to intern and work, but I know that really shouldn't even be an choice.  If only I could find somewhere that paid you while you interned.  That would be wonderful!!!  My parents are being very helpful, but I feel horrable depending on them once again.  Well....what else....I just went and saw the show RENT!  It was GREAT!!!  Anyone that likes Rent should go see it again!  Okay, thats all for today, I will wait til something is really on my mind to write again...now I got to get back to my homework.

Later


Saturday, October 28, 2006

Happy Halloween everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have fun, be safe.


Wednesday, October 18, 2006

It takes me so long to write here...  And of course I am here to let somethings out...hopefully to find some perspective!  I am feeling scared and angry right now.  First it was saddness and some tears...I don't cry much anymore, but the fear of losing people close to me and having people judge me is to much.  I will explain it on a level that most people would understand...say you were drinking and you did something out of character...or it's been the most stressful day of your life and you yell at someone that didn't deserve it....  The thing is that I did something out of character for me...I been going through so much, that sometimes I don't even know what to do anymore...anyway...I hear today that I am the focus of everyones convos.  A negative part of my personality is that I feel the need to be accepted...understood...etc.  I don't normally do things just to fit in, but I still hurts when people think less of me.  The part of this whole thing that makes me angry is I am the one that alway gets all of my personal life made public.  Almost every mastake I have ever made has been the topic of the town.  Why me???  I understand that it is because I am looked at as mostly being a good person...and one that doesn't do many negitive things...I was told that it is because people always accept to best from me....WHY??  Why can't I do something totally stupid and still have people accept me....for me....a person, just like everyone else that can mess up.  It drives me crazy!!!  Why do people expect so much from me?

Okay...I have been through much worse and been alright, I know I will again.  I just don't want have everyone ask me if the rumor is really true, blah blah blah and giving me advice or lectures...I work at a bar, and I am going to see so many people!  The funny thing is...this is how it was a few years ago...  If I slept with someone, this shit would happen...Sorry if any young people are reading this...but really, just think of it like anytime you ever slept with someone or even kissed someone everyone would talk about it...  I still get people saying...yeah I hear you and so-and-so kissed ...(im thinking, yeah...a month ago)...then they make it a big deal.  Really I hear almost everything at my job and hardly ever hear people talking about shit like they do with me.  To make it worse, I am friends with almost everyone and they are still talking about me...most I am sure aren't talking shit, but still talking about it with others that have NO buisness in my personal life..

LOL...have I made any since??  It's okay if I haven't, because this was just for my beneft.  For anyone that read this....I'm very sorry of you  :)~  See, now I am trying to cheer myself up...yeah anyway.   Later.


Sunday, August 20, 2006

Okay...its a Saturday night and I am at home. Not like me at all.  I figure it is a good thing cause I am not out spending money and getting drunk.  I have had some wine which isn't good and wishing a certain someone would call, which he won't but whatever.  I've finally opened up my heart again, just to let it get hurt.  I had closed off my heart because I didn't want to get hurt anymore.  I understand that it isn't healthy to do that but I just felt that it was so much easier then putting myself out there to get stepped on over and over again.  So, what happened???  I guess I kinda stepped on guys and didn't even realize it.  A few that had feelings for me, didn't get the time of day and got hurt...now the same thing is happening to me.  I don't know if this is making much since, but hey...it's my blog and I'm just typing....  I'm finally at the point of my life where I don't want to be miss independent anymore...I want to have someone there...someone to love....someone to love me...is that to much to ask???  Of course not, and I know it will happen when the time is right, it's just that I feel the time is finally right.  Hope it happens soon.  To all those of you that have a great person in your life...be thankful!  Goodnight...

~Sierra



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You Are Psyche!
Eternally in search of purpose and insight.
You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder.
Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily.
Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!
Men See You As Choosy
Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait
Your Love Song Is
Yellow by Coldplay

"Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow"

You're so in love, it's like a drug.
You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy
When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch
Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.
From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.
And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.
Your Bumper Sticker Should Be
If you don't like my driving - stay off the sidewalk
Your Ideal Pet is a Cat
You're both aloof, introverted, and moody.
And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed! ---lol...I love it!!!
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
You Should Be A Pisces
What's good about you: carefree and compassionate, you are truly light hearted

What's bad about you: when things get bad, you tend to retreat and not let others in

In love: you're a true romantic - it's flowers, bubble baths, and candles all the way

In friendship, you're: eager to lend a sympathetic ear and likely to develop a deep connection

Your ideal job: bartender, magician, or secret agent

Your sense of fashion: simple clothes that don't distract from your personality

You like to pig out on: seafood - from fish sticks to salmon
Your Hair Should Be Orange
Expressive, deep, and one of a kind.
You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.
Your Love Life Secrets Are
Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.
Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC
"Back in black, I hit the sack,
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"

Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.
But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!
Critics would give my life a B+!



Welcome to the pinnacle of average budget movies. That's right, short of a few million dollars to burn on cars, lawsuits and animal training, this is probably the highest you could get. Not that that's a bad thing, the B+ rating is much higher than most movies. You take a normal life and incorporate enough Hollywood cliches to woo the critics over to your side. Sure, you don't have Matrilike funds to blow up five third-world countries in your pursuit of the most amazing action possible, but you've done very well with what you have. Between dodging lawsuits with fake names and buying time bombs that stop at :01 on their own, you make life look much more exciting than it actual is, and the critics love you for it.

What rating would movie critics give your life?

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I'm 70% famous!



Get ready for the big time, 'cause you're well on your way. You've most likely already experienced being recognized in a crowd, or having a dedicated fanbase for something you've done. Now just try not to mess it up!

How famous are you?

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greenhair
Your anime hair color is green.
Your Birthdate: December 9
Your birth on the 9th day of the month adds a tone of idealism and humanitarianism to your nature. You become one who can work easily with people because you are broadminded, tolerant and generous. You are ever sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you are very sympathetic and compassionate. Your feeling run deep and you often find yourself in dramatically charged situations. This 9 energy always tends to give more that it gets.
Your Porn Star Name is: Sweetest Sin


Your Stripper Name is: Delicious


You Are a Visionary Soul
You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul
You Have A Type B+ Personality
B+
You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions
Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male
Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!
Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible
Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun!
You Are Best Described By...
Landscape With Butterflies By Salvador Dali
You Are A Hornbeam Tree
You are a reserved person, looking in from the outside. Naturally attractive, you take good care of your looks. You are not egoistic, and you make life as comfortable as possible. You look for kindness in others - though you are seldom happy with yourself. A bit mistrusting and unsure, you dream of being swept away by someone unusual.
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

Your #1 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #2 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #3 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Your #1 Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

Your #2 Love Type: ENTP

The Visionary In love, you are always trying to improve and grow your relationship. For you, sex should be a spontaneous adventure. Overall, you are magnetic, inspiring, and a charmer. However, you tend to get bored and want to change partners frequently. Best matches: INFJ and INTJ

Your #3 Love Type: INFP

The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ
Your Power Color Is Red-Orange
At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?"
*WOW...that really described me!* Take this one!

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.
You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.
You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.
You Are a Punk Rocker!
When it comes to rock, you don't follow any rules You know that rocking out is all about taking down the man You've got an incredible stage presence and rock persona You scare moms, make bad girls (or boys) swoon, and live life on the edge!
Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.
Your IQ Is 90
Your Logical Intelligence is Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Average
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant. Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle. You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs. For you, comfort and calm are very important. You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection. You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.
In a Past Life...
You Were: A Kind Fortune Teller. Where You Lived: Israel. How You Died: Dysentery.
You Are 20% Weird
Not enough to scare other people... But sometimes you scare yourself.
You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri
You're a fun, playful drinker who loves to party. You may get totally wasted, but you're always a happy drunk!
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